Midwinter...Wish

Vocabulary #1

2008-01-21T18:43:00.001-08:00

Dilapidated: run down in despair

Elusive: hard to identify

Merry Christmas

2007-12-24T22:03:00.001-08:00

it's been a while that i posted here... just because I already have another blog :) sorry... But Merry Xmas!!!! the icon is inoue Mao... credit if use

Other Gong Yoo Pictures ! yet again

2007-11-21T18:48:00.000-08:00

Got to love him!!

Mizu... Shima... Hiro !!!♥

2007-11-21T18:04:00.000-08:00

Today was alright! i love this short break and tomorrow it's Thanksgiving!! I am so happy!! I thank God for such an amazing family He gave me Gosh I am so blessed!! If you happen to stumble in this page you should be envious because my family is cooler and better than yours!!! haha lol
So I was doing some random pics of Yoo then I did Mizushima Hiro!! lol I will post him anyway.

Gong Yoo... Eyes... pictures and bod I want his bod lol

2007-11-20T11:31:00.000-08:00

this post is so random, but I remember when I was watching Coffee Prince shop the main guy did not
appeal to me. Not any guy on that show on that matter... But Ah Rim was funny at times. So the
main guy real name is Gong Yoo and recently I have been browsing through that website and I just
started to like his eyes... lol... not because it looks good or anything but mainly because it did not have
any double eye lid surgery. And I just love him for that. and plus his body is mmmmm Finnnnee!!!

I guess there is no need to credit for the pics because there is a huge sign from where i got it.lol oh but the second pic is from popseoul like always modified by me~

Change it back... Change what it means to be friends

2007-11-18T16:50:00.000-08:00

If you don't like someone, tell them. The worst thing you can do on earth is using someone for your own good. Just tell them they will be alright. I personally hate that as I have been used so many times and I don't want to anymore.

I don't want that fake friendship, if I am that annoying just tell me, just back off.

don't play me, don't talk to me then.

Just tell me that you hate me.

I rather know it than seeing your fake smile everyday,

because that smile is not warm when you are faking it all the way through.

I love all the moments with you, but I guess it is time for you just to back off. just back off and mind your own business.
Gosh I am freaking tired with all this.

I wonder where I went wrong again, I just lost another ''friend''...

Her/His name is Yume ~~~

2007-11-16T20:21:00.000-08:00

Her name is Yume,
She is pale with white flowers,
I named her after a new word I learned…

Now she is one of my friends
She is always next to me
Even in my math class or biology
She is sitting next to me…

I think Yume is pretty
But sometimes I can’t tell if she is a girl or a boy…
So I just call her, her or him sometimes maybe it
That’s Yume even though I don’t really know what she is
I think that she is really cool…

When I feel sad,
She keeps my sadness
When I am happy,
She keeps my happiness
I really love Yume~
For all she is,
And also because she sends my letters to God…

One day she will die…
But I’ll always remember her life
With all the writing in her
With all the drawing in her
I will always wish for her to be remembered
She is my friend…

She is Yume,
He is Yume.
This is Yume

Yes.... I did it again~~ Sorry

2007-11-16T11:47:00.001-08:00

I got to say that I am really quick at thinking negatively esp. when I met strangers I don't expect much from them. not even kindness... that's bad I know but expectation kills when reality is missing. So I rather expect nothing from stranger than having high expectation... I think that it is good though~~~ : )

''I hope that our friendship will last for long''--He said

2007-11-13T18:50:00.000-08:00

I hate promises...

Don't make a promise when your are not able to realise it....
He said we will be friends for a long time and he gave me a smile
When I said maybe... with a frown
Deep inside I knew...
I knew that it would not last for long
The next day I saw him on my way.
I could not get a smile like yesterday or an handshake like when nothing happened
I just turned away but yet I remember,
The promise he had made yesterday,
the smile he gave... Too bad I could not see it
Too good that this selfish kind of friend disappeared...
when I remember,

those worthless yesterdays

Days when I bore all your mistakes with a big heart
saying that along the lines
you will get better with time
I laughed at myself for being so naive

After all you said it,

You just ''hoped ''
Silly me I guess I can't fix everything
I don't intend to hold on... I don't want to hang on
this kind of ''friends'' will leave me some day...

but sometimes I just wonder where I went wrong

It is tiring to always have to deal with this kind of love... selfish
I am still a stranger into all this thing after all~

Quote of the Day: ''I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, Life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow...'' ~~ Maya Angelou

Picture credits to axeangel@stumbleupon, modified by me~~

Postcard~~~~ A relationship that ended....

2007-11-13T10:24:00.000-08:00

Her name was H..... L..

She was one of my K.ps...

I was suppose to send her this postcard
Since she lives so far...
That was before, just before she knew...
Her happiness was short I'll say
But I never knew that for her

Tiny thing such as color mattered...

It was so fast... It ended so quickly...

Just like it started.

My unsent postcard ...

Haruka Haruka---------Sun--Moyi

2007-11-13T09:38:00.000-08:00

It was warm under the sun,
But I was wondering if the sun and silence was all I needed...
Compare to a place that I am used to ...
I could not decide until...
The sun started to fade away...

An apple on the table.
Maybe it was a sign.
That's why I wrote...

~~Koi no Ochitara~~

Shooting Star~~~~~~Nagare Boshi

2007-11-12T21:32:00.000-08:00

well this is the lyrics to a song... inspired me somehow, because sometimes when we lost our ways, we just need something to remind us what we've promised ourselves...It's translated from Japanese to English... I believe that it's almost accurate, I did not translate this... I wish i could have... :-) The singer is Home Made Kazoku~~ and the song's name in Japanese is Nagare Boshi. Here it goes...

When I look up at the sky
The stars, see, are sparkling
Each giving off its own light
Like the people on this planet
Yeah, so I, too
Want to shine particularly bright
I close my eyes and make a vow in my heart
And entrust my dreams to that shooting star

I’m in my usual park
I can see the night scenery
On the slide
That’s been my special seat for years
Whenever I’m worried about something, I come here
Just like then, I’m on my way to my dreams
But unable to fulfil them“Maybe this is the end of the line”
There are days when I say weak things like that
But every time, I remember
That starry sky where I looked for a shooting star
The wish I made when I was little
Hasn’t changed even now

When I look up in the sky...

Hiding out in the schoolyard at night with my mates
We climbed the wire netting
The field seemed to have a different face than during the day
We headed for our sea called the pool
We didn’t have swimming trunks, so we were all stark naked
Someone jumped in with a strange yell
The splash echoed through the night“After him!” Everyone else piled in
We floated gently, looking up at the sky
Looked at the stars in front of us, and talked about heaps of dreams
And looked for that shooting star

When I look up in the sky...

Looking up at the sky, there are countless stars
The same number now that there was years ago
My dreams are endless and crazy
Incredibly bright, like that star

Hey! If you keep hanging your head like that
You won’t even be able to see the things you can see
Look up at the sky, keep your head up!!
Hey! “What do you think of the sky you see?”
Someday, like that shining star…
I wanna shine

When I look up in the sky...

Translation Credits to saka_xd @ animelyrics.com

Breathe~~~~ Follow Your instincts

2007-11-12T08:42:00.001-08:00

I got to say that instincts are really good. Many times I find myself saying "I could have known better" but yet I make the same mistake again. Like being a friend with that girl was not a good idea because my sister told me that if something is suppose to happen don't force it!!! Ah! I knew better even what happened recently. Something down there did not feel right and I did not know what until I got out with a rejection and a broken heart... That was sweet life at 18, It must happened after all the heartbreak I must have one from overseas!! lol.

Quote of the day: The flesh is a gambler and the spirit an investor. -Joyce Meyer (it is always good to hear her preach!)

Your Side_____ Funny Story

2007-11-11T22:43:00.000-08:00

It's hard to switch back and forth between all those stuff but hey I can get over it. It was just a heartbreak and yeah the js are way better now and I am sooo over it. LOL I do not know what the picture for this post will be~~~ I guess I have chosen Yokogao because it's so much of what happened recently. I have fell in love with Ks profile not really knowing who they really were. when i found out I was out of resources and I ran back to God! Ah! that was the reason for all the heaviness inside. But everything will be fine.

''When the story of Love began, from the beginning to the end, the Hero wins'' - Downhere (maybe? I can't remember)

There is something else to worry about....

2007-11-09T08:36:00.000-08:00

I was doing fine, when I did not know that. I mean I looked for it at some points so maybe I deserve it. But it is getting crappier as I am trying to move on with my life. This is not good. I keep on asking why so much hatred against us? why? I want to move on, I want to carry on with my life as if nothing happen, i want to bring that light with me. I want to make people's darkest day the brightest. I want to live my dream and forget all those haters and all those pains from the past. I want to be able to forget, all this pain that I cause to myself while I was looking for something ''new'', I am so sorry please mend this broken heart. This is a Lame world with so much madness

My oranges, my hearts and my leaves...

2007-11-08T19:43:00.000-08:00

this has been a while since I have been talking about this heaviness down inside all the time that I do that. It was better of when it was only Js, Ks got me in a lot more trouble and now I just feel like Mariah Carey...I was bringing on the heartbreak. How could I possibly find peace outside when I am troubled inside? I guess this memory goes in the folder ''The best year at Mereshit.''(yes I did it again)

This is shitty like seriously shitty. From the beginning, I knew that something did not feel right. Yapari!!! Those ungrateful bastards!!! Right now I am really mad, like to the highest level. Those hypocrites, bastard and shitty cheaters!!! make something on your own then come back and talk. And they are like my favorite singer is Usher or Omarion, What the fuck?(yes I did it, I knew that it will come down to this)And that Backstabber Bitch Car. she is going to pay, she better not come and talk about her freaking SAT, she will have a piece of my mind.

Seriously this world is L.A.M.E!!!!~~~~~~

And I wasted my precious study hours to do those dumb ass wallpaper!!! Aie!! so stupid!!!!

Everything was fine when I only had my leaves, my hearts and my oranges in my heart. I could have known that in order for me to feel right, I need to find peace in me. Then, just then everything will be alright(hopefully)

No sweets... Live Carefree

2007-11-08T06:59:00.000-08:00

Il pleure dans mon coeur

Comme il pleut sur la ville

Quelle est cette langueur

Qui pénètre mon coeur ?

I can finish this whole poem... for a while I love it and I never knew why. I like the melancholy... I guess it's because it relates so much to my life at times. I wanted to replace this poem with another one but I still can't. I even tried Shakspeare famous sonnet ''Let me not to the marriage of true mind admit impediment, love is not love.."(i forgot the sonnet number)

But this poem by Paul Verlaine can't get out of my head because I feel like this time to time. I do not know what's going and I am still sad. This world is super lame.

I wrote with a black pen

just because I felt like it.

it could not be any darker...

since 2day was one of those dark days.

Thirst... Something New...

2007-11-07T23:04:00.000-08:00

This pic is as shitty as the place where I took it
I took this pic next to another fountain at Meredith. It's been about a month now maybe since I took it. I just felt like posting it because... I don't know. I am suppose to sleep since it's 2:09 am now, but who cares. This is so random...sigh... I am going to edit this eventually...

~~True Luv...? Love? Maybe...

2007-11-07T18:19:00.000-08:00

I just found out lately that my friends tend to come to me with their love problems... That's really cool to see that people think that I am good at giving advice although I am single... sigh... A love doctor maybe? that's funny because I get all of my advice from some movies or random stuff I watched... I guess that's what makes it so interesting or is it the fact that I am always all ears... sometimes that's what we all need, someone that just can listen and say nothing or someone that can listen and say something that might hurt or heal the pain. When I listen to the song ''True Luv'' By Brown Eyes... Those boys were pretty naive... True love never make you cry? This is so naive... Oh Puh-lease. Makes it look like something sooo cool. It is just cool when it's alive, once dead, you keep on telling yourself that you were better off without knowing it.

I don’t want to know what love is…

2007-11-06T09:44:00.000-08:00

I listen to this song today, the title is ‘’ 나는 사랑이 뭔지 모르나봐요’’
This is dedicated to my broken heart.
If you read this keep on reading till the end
Because that’s how love is, we love until the end,
We love until it’s over…
If we call that love… then God is something else.

I do not want to know what love is…

Once she touched the borders of your heart
She felt like never letting go.
She wanted to hold on forever…

I do not want to know what love is…

Once I looked at your eyes,
I was wondering when was the last time you fell in love
When I saw and heard your pain,
My heart failed and I swear that I will never fall in love
I don’t want to know what love is…
It breaks my heart to see your pain

I am use to this loneliness,
I am use to walk this road all alone…
I don’t want to know what love is
Because it is already making me cry...

...

it's okay to dream...

Rewind...사랑해요... Tears from the Soul

2007-11-05T16:52:00.000-08:00

I wonder where those past years has gone,

Did I spent them all in sadness and loneliness?

i remember at 16 when i heard your voice on a phone call

singing for me happy birthday, those where good times.

I am tired of watching from afar

I want to mend those last years,

God... they bring loneliness in my heart...

I can't believe two years passed

Since I first met you...

I will always remember your face...

As I've never loved you.

``Here you are on the other side``

2007-11-04T01:13:00.001-07:00

The sky at Raleigh.... Pretty cool. From here you can see the RBC center. I hate that place, when there is a game or a concert there is like a freaking rush hour... and if you want to pee... yeah you are dead lol. It looks pretty good. But even under the heavy clouds... it ain't always raining at Raleigh. There are some sad days beneath those skies. and you just have to be there to experience Raleigh. It's an experience thing ^_^
Man, I am still trying to learn Korean and yes it is pretty challenging... O_0 I wonder if I will stick with it. Or did I just react too fast because I love Wheesung???? But I will not give up, not now... Mweehee there is more to life.~~

Tired... again TOP

2007-11-02T20:54:00.000-07:00

The title is tired because it's me... I am so tired... But I had to mend the other post that my sis laughed at. One day when I'll look back at this post I laughed at how bad I am at this stuff. I really got to get better...sigh...But at least I tried : )

Sad Story------Loveholic

2007-11-02T19:57:00.000-07:00

Since I have Wheesung and some Big Bang... I had to add Loveholic, since they are or were really good. If you are having a rainy day, if you want to pity yourself/briefly you just want to cry, and let it all out some more just listen to Loveholic's Shinkirou or Sad Story, or Sad Movie or Rainy Day, or A separation that could not start or Flower Pot or If you were here...it goes on and on... Cries... bad break-ups. But I really love Loveholic. I am loveholicted...( got to stop with the new words but whatever...)

The bad disbanded some times in late October, I guess the girl (JiSun) went solo (maybe she was the one doing all the songs? because she sings most of them..IDK) and the last concert was just heartbreaking like all the song they sang, she cried... And it reminded me of Zone a Japanese band who disbanded a while ago now and in their final concert they cried... me too... It was so sad. Ahhh Goodbyes always hurt.

But I really hope that she will succeed...

''Road is long there's no way back, as the last trace of this intimidating world fades away, you are left alone...mmm God Bless you.''-Loveholic's song Bless you. my favorite for now

Yokogao~~ Glamorous Sky

2007-11-02T08:01:00.000-07:00

I fell in love with your (face) profile... I got to say that I fell head over heels for kmusic, and jculture. I do not know what to say...I just feel like this is the right thing to do or even say. I love it soo much. I remember when I was saying that there's got to be more to life? yeah here I am. receiving more to life. I mean never in my whole life, even when I am 14 years old, I have never thought of even knowing anything about Japan or Korea on that matter. First I did not know anything about Korea or Koreans, know some stuff about Japan though. And now here I am: ''I started to wish that I could touch you before I even realize it...emotions aroused, they can’t be stopped.'' (Aiko- Yokogoa lyrics) This is just how I feel right now. I just hope that I am in the right track God please a little help here. This is seriously killing me in a good way though. I am happy, I got to know more and there is nothing better...

Now I am under a glamorous sky Thank God that he created us all different so that there is always something more to learn about the others. and it is getting fun and fun and funner (lol sorry Mrs M.)

Everything is looking good except for my grades... I guess that I will not be an A straight student this semester but anyway it is my first year as a freshman, next semester will be alright! Fighting~~!!

Smile... Mornful Yesterdays

2007-11-01T22:57:00.000-07:00

I got to say that once you love something you can do anything? maybe? lol anyway I went to look for Wheesung's lyrics. And most of them were about sad break ups or just something sad. I do not know if it is just me who sees sadness first in people or I am right... yet again, I have no idea. The same thing happened to Yamapi I thought that he was a sad guy since I watched Sore wa Totsuzen Arashi no You ni... Then I was wrong and my sis laughed at me (and she still does).

But I believe that you can know an artist through his oeuvres... and since Wheesung write most of his lyrics, I think that somewhere from 0 to 25 years someone broke his heart big time (lol but kinda sad)
Seriously this time I think that I am right... like 85% maybe? If he wrote most of his lyrics not all of them but most of them, then he does have a shady past or a break-upfull past( i know this word does not exist... sorry to my English 12th teacher).

And again another post about Wheesung~~ This is Wheelove babyyyyy

Love...Love..! Love..? Got to love Wheesung ♥

2007-11-01T15:39:00.000-07:00

As I said before... a Wheesung post. Man I love this guy's voice, before I already said that if I keep listening to his voice I might fall in love with him. I think I am already in love with this guy. Man... his voice, Got to love his voice ♥. His new album is the bomb and my favorite song is Cha An Nam Nyeo 차안남녀 (I don't even know what this means but hi hi who cares the sound is good and the voice... no comment esp on the part 라 바빰바 차창을 때리는 빗물 가슴까지 파고든다 Oh Oh=Ra ba bbam ba cha chang eul ddae ri neun pim mul ka seum kka ji pa go deun da Oh Oh.) credits to neko28.wordpress.com got to check out this site, great songs collection ^_^
I guess that it is a sad break up song? maybe? Because when I translate it give me something like ''Until the rainwater breast which hits the car-window it digs into'' and the title ''Near bank man and woman'' (lol, yes people this is how crappy the Internet translation can be)
I am looking forward to learn Korean maybe?? or find translation of the lyrics? sigh... life is so cruel. But at least I am learning. I did not give up on my Japanese but Wheesung makes me wanna learn Korean no matter what.

~♥ ~♥ ~Got to love Wheesung~♥ ~♥ ~

Ok there she goes again...making me laugh...

2007-11-01T09:23:00.000-07:00

Well, lol I told my sis to check out my blog... she was impressed until she saw the pic of TOP and she was like: ''lol no offense you could have done better, now he looks like a dead man that you are trying to remember, and his face is flying in your head...'' lol I think that she might be right. The cropping sucks on the picture...but that was like my first cropping ever! I know that... she just made me laugh for a good while.

I wanted to post something that has to do with Glamorous Sky since I have like a huge crush on this song... But I am at school and yeah if I do some more cropping my sis will just.... sigh...
There is only a month left till the end of the 1st semester... I can't believe it. It went by so fast but yes! finally I'll have time to watch some more dramas and get better at my cropping.

And soon I feel a post about Wheesung... I can't get enough of that guy...

T.O.P ♥ It's a girl thing... pinky

2007-10-31T23:51:00.000-07:00

Lol I had to do all this without colors... Well it was pink before but since it showed all the mistakes of the cropping... It sucked then I just tinted it light blue I guess it looks better but I have to change some stuff later on and get better on my cropping style. It was pretty in pink...cries... lol. And the quote is messed up too. I do not remember what he said but it was something like that.

Anyway I was looking for the picture of Se7en arm tattoo since I think that it is pretty good and I saw those girls in NYC who got the chance to met him.... for free... no concert, I guess that they just walked into him or something like that... Ahhh they are so lucky...If I met with Se7en I would have asked him to give me a pic of Wheesung (lol) so I could cherish it forever. I remember that girl S. in my AP French class who fell in love with John Legend's voice and she was like:''I am in love with this guy like I want to marry him'' I laughed then but now I am in the same situation lol Wheesung....mesmerising voice ♥ ♥ ♥

History.... Try to remember or forget

2007-10-31T11:25:00.000-07:00

Oh well what else do I have to say today, I do not like to bring history stuff of whatever it is called...Since I do not believe in the story that is told in history books. I was not pissed but I was laughing at them for being so jealous of something that they could not do or have on that matter. At first I did not even have the courage of looking straight at the teacher since it was so shameful. He just had to point the fact that Africa was named Shem (one of the cursed son of Noah) on the O.T. map dating from the 16 centuries and that the coast were filled with ''monster'' yes that was how those dumb ass explorer(or whoever draw that map) saw the world. The rage came from the bottom of my heart to my face so I decided not to look at the foolish teacher. This was stupid... We can definitely see that there is a ''hole'' in history and that those ''savages'' that those ''explorer'' found were not as they described them. I will not believe history that came from someone who thinks that he is superior to anyone different than him. It's crazy to believe something like that. He probably changed the whole history so we can see him as the ''best'', the ''superior''. I don't want to hate him, there is no point to hate someone... Then I came to a conclusion:

History= made up story by some people.

Mundele=full of himself and of the ''ghost of jalousie'' (quoting MJ here)

Hate=fear and tears of those whom past has been erased, pain of lost people.

But I try not to hate because there is no point to it. We just wait and see until one day the truth will be recovered.

Conclusion: History books (of the ancient time) are made up of lies and false perspectives from blind men. (about 70%is true)

Quote of the Day:''Though we might hate to admit it, there are always two sides to every story...Be sure, before we close our eyes ,Don't walk away from here til you see both sides of the story''-Phil Collins

Subject.... What...Tae Yang~♥~

2007-10-30T23:40:00.000-07:00

Finally my second I guess, made by me self lol Ah it took me hours to finally find out how to use those brushes stroke and all. It's consuming... and now it is almost 3:00am I guess I should go to sleep but anyway I am proud of my work it was all worth it (I guess) lol. I guess it looks pretty since the model is not bad...I think Tae Yang is cute ♥ and shy also I love his gangsta side that is why... Gangsta Ways (I guess I was suppose to say gangsta style but ways works too) babyyyeye.

Pic from a forum and retouched by be and yes I did all the color work and all

Michi~~ Where we strarted...

2007-10-29T05:36:00.001-07:00

Those where the best memories... When we walked down that hall together and we laughed.

Today is Monday, I am back where I started, with everything including Meredith (u see I don't call it Mereshit anymore) there is no point of insulting it, it will just make my freshman year as a college student worst. When i fell in love... such a long time ago. now maybe a year and half. I read something about that African American woman(Leslie Benfield) in Korean and stuff how they pointed out that Koreans are not racist just old people are. which was very controversial about what I watched. It was about this half and half kid who was neglected when he was in Korea because he was not ''pure'' Korean. anyway why am I talking about Korea?.... yeah I know whatever... but I still wonder why Amerie concert was cancelled... But you see it does not concern me, those people have a long way to go until they open up to the real world, the high way, so they can crush Japan as they wish to do. lol those stuff will never get old. people wanting to get revenge to other, that's shit. Jesus was already back so stuff like that will not exist anymore. but those shitty politician and other crappy people only think about vengeance. If it was me i would not have done any different against those people that I hate, but I pray to the Lord to learn how to forgive those bastard that have hurt my country at some point (and till now they are doing the same shit)...

now i am wondering when am i going to stop cursing.... This is seriously a lame world....

Excuse me... say What????... Those fans/bastards/ignorant people are wack...

2007-10-27T20:01:00.000-07:00

This is crazy lol it just took me 2 days to find out how ppl in there are ignorant ( I am not trying to stereotype here) but some post that i read in popseoul.com was just flat out funny. Man seriously, those bands or whatever... they are all wannabe of Americans stars instead of doing something on their own, they spend their time copying and pasting watever that was that Usher or Justin T. or Beyonce did on their first solo concert. This is nuts and those '' fans'' who think that they rock??? Please.. gimme a big fat break here, they have nothing special =all fake. And to finish everything... I don't know what to say O_0 It was just sooo stupid.... I guess I have to change the banner of my blog ( and I worked hard on it...sniff... this sucks)... man I really loved it and TOP... sigh... bye bye I am not going to have a crush on you guys again. Anyway I knew that it would not last long... this is shit (oops I did it again, cursing is really a bad thing but yeah it was all worth it, those kfans got on my last nerves and yet someone had to pay :( I am back to the basics... It was a crazy experience.

Ignorance is bad people get educated and know some more about the WORLD not only where you live...

Bastard those fans. (quoting M. here lol)

My Kpop Obsession ♥

2007-10-26T18:03:00.000-07:00

Gosh i spent like 2 hours doing this stupid pic and it did not came out right anyway I started using this thing there has been like 3 days hopefully I'll get better. well this is a lengthy post...

well there is like 2 picture of Se7en... poor Top but did I mention that I love Se7en tattoo? I think that it is pretty cool, he is like the second person that I liked tattooed the first one was Goldberg(wrestler if anyone remembers lol)

From top: Top, Se7en,Tae Yang, Wheesung, Se7en

Oh well I guess one day it would have come up to this... Anyway now I am like addicted to Kpop like crazy. I mean even though some of their songs are deja-vu but the voices... First I like the fact that they use the rn'b style and also hip hop and soul. They have a good taste at least they know the basics of music. The thing is, when I discovered them first singing hip hop I was like errm this sound so familiar, they should have something on their own. Then I was happy because I did not know that hip hop and rn'b have so much impact on music in Korea, it was pretty interesting. You see it's like they have their own:

Boyz II Men-----TVXQ

R.Kelly-----Wheesung(hearts ♥ hearts)

B2K-----Big Bang

Usher----Rain (since himself said that he really love Usher's music)

KCI & Jojo(Gosh I always mess up the Kci part lol)----Fly High

And the list goes on... it's pretty cool that's how I see it and that's how I love them sooo much. Soo much oh I forgot to compare Se7en but yeah he is also my one of my fav. ksinger... and plus I think that he is handsome(just handsome the best one so far TOP~~~ ♥hearts♥ hearts)

My firsts outsiders????....

2007-10-26T05:52:00.000-07:00

Wow I was not suppose to post this but anyway... maybe one day my journal will be lost so I need to remember those firsts...

My first:

Korean Song that i listened to and really liked: Labor in Vain by Linus' Blanket ( a ballad song, it reminded me of lounge and it was all because of Coffee Prince)

Korean Drama watched: 18 vs 29

Jdrama: Hana Yori Dango

Japanese Song: probably Wish by Arashi since it was the theme song of HYD

Jdrama crush: man I guess none so far I always think that most of them look like girls... errm

Korean Crush: finally mwahaaaa that what inspired me to write hehe proud to say TOP (big bang member) gosh he is just so masculine and the eyes... God Thank You, You created him with such smokey eyes... I know that this will not last but at least it is my first kcrush so i am proud that finally a Korean guy appealed to me. yay!!

Kband that i really like : Loveholic...

Ksinger that i love: Wheesung, wheesung, wheesung, wheesung and wheesung... his voice... u have no idea

Jband: seriously none... i just think that their way of singing does not fit me quiet well... too high pitched that does not fit the song or the person singing it and the costumes they wear on their concerts just... throw me off...way off the wall.

Jsinger: maybe Crystal Kay... well she is not really japanese, anyways she is half Korean and African American... so that does not make her a jsinger but she lives in Japan so i guess it does make her one (i do not make sense)

Taiwanese actor/singer/business man crush: Wu Chun.

This is not suppose to go here but anyways the best singer/performer/whatever it is at singing name it he will do : MJ. Michael Jackson the King of Pop!!!! ^ ^ this guy is my fav of all time. My favorite song of his is Billie Jean and I was not even born when this song was out but I heart this song for life!!!! ^^

I guess this list will keep on growing as I am watching lots of Asiatic stuff lately... hopefully I'll find a jcrush soon, it's so annoying that it has been months that i watch those stuff but i can't have a crush on any of them...

Ouch!! The rain... Nothing last forever

2007-10-24T07:06:00.000-07:00

I have to write this is crazy... I can't go to my next class... it's pouring rain outside and eum yes, I really don't want to go... anyway it's french so whatever... yesterday I stayed up late at night... trying to figure out why I was at Mereshit again. Yeah this school is really crappy... Somehow I miss my High school year and I wrote a poem about this shitty school seriously it belong to hoes... no offense (none taken anyway)... Nothing last forever.... I could have make the most of my high school years... those were the best years... :..)
Pic from internet obv.

Always ~~ Big Bang

2007-10-21T18:08:00.000-07:00

Ah! I decided to have this post since well I like Big Bang ( a Korean hip hop group), not only that I like them, I like also their voice. They are not my favorite Korean singers... but since they look good (esp Sun a.k.a Tae Yang who looks like a Korean Omarion and TOP smokey eyes...sigh... handsome and the cute GDragon... with a killer smile ^ ^) and since my friend love them also. I decided to post this. But personally my favorite Korean singer is Wheesung... I love his voice soooo much that I think I will end up loving him :P. But still B.B. I love them too. *Hearts*
I love this collage and I made it myself with pictures from a website http://neko28.wordpress.com/...

More like Bleeding Reality

2007-10-18T07:25:00.000-07:00

It's raining again today, I guess that is why I am writing. I watched Cartoon KAT-TUN yesterday and today again. I am extremely happy and I love Ne-Yo and KAT TUN more, I like the fact that they got along so well and also KAT TUN reaction toward him. It was sooo kawaii and Koki reaction and all of them it was like they were seeing a dream and Ne-Yo looked like a ''cool'' friend of them... And when he sang it was sooo cool and they were watching like wow. since their own singing stinks I guess that they were so impressed. I love that ep. it will be my fav from now on.

Today is happy day... I believe that even where you are in a place where you don't want to be, just believe that you love that place and everything will be fine. Very fine. Believing is everything. Baybay

Listen to ''Bleeding Love'' by Leona Lewis in such day is sooo Cool!!! ^ ^. I am happy even if the reasons are not really accurate but I know it's God.

I tried to sleep this pain

2007-10-08T20:06:00.001-07:00

I tried to sleep this pain away
But it followed me in my dreams
I wish I could touch my heart
And tell it to stop,
Give me a break at least for a week…

I am starting to regret the day that met you
I could have just stay that way
Life was carefree without you…

I am listening to the same song again.
Bebe this is far from depression
It’s the ultimate inexpressible feeling.

faded roses...

Orange Days

2007-10-07T14:54:00.000-07:00

I watched Orange Days, a Japanese drama. It was a charming, and really interesting story about two people who fell in love. You would say it is typical, well there are some surprises delightfully added by the producer. The girl involved in the story (Shubasaki Kou) is deaf and half mute (she doesn’t speak because she doesn’t want to), and more over she has a really stingy temper. The man (Tsumabuki Satoshi) really had to fall head over heels to put up with her temper. My appreciation for this story goes for many points about social life. First, all the love that her friends surrounded her with was really intriguing and charming. Second, all her aggressive temper toward her love (Satoshi), would be admirably quieted by his bright and crushing love. The kind of story that could opens your eyes about other realities of life. For instance, you never thought about it, but it can happen to you: falling for someone who is deaf or impaired.
After watching the drama, half sacrificing my studying time for the addictive story, I listened to Chris Rice song When did you fall in love. I smiled when I thought about their love, and the fact that Satoshi and Kou fell in love long before they knew it. I really appreciate the fact that concerning the main characters, it is a multifaceted love story: falling in love with someone for his/her talent, for his/her care, for his/her outward and inward beauty, and most importantly falling for someone because you just can’t get past his/her presence. And the crushingly loveable scene that could make you tear without your own consent: their dialogue while making love. Wow! The typical scene is when two lovers talk while sleeping together but never two people sign while sleeping together. It was new, original.
When Kai (Satoshi) told Sae (Kou) that God gives tribulations to those He knows would overcome them, a light went on in my head. I simply never saw it that way, and one more point for some Japanese drama: education. I just love it.
And despite everything that this story has in divergence with many others that I have read, heard of and watched, the popular expression “love prevails”, no, “Koi prevails” is what ties it to the others. And fortunately it is true.
Domo arigato or thank you very much!!!!
TDT Oct.6th, 2007 5h39’

Rose Lady

2007-10-06T13:40:00.001-07:00

‘’I offer you roses (…)
Please don’t offer me roses
They’ll see me cry
The heavy load of life on me
Is painful
Don’t offer me roses
When they’ll see me cry,
They will fade from sadness…’’

credits: internet and a movier(idr which)

Sky... I am never going to fall in love again

2007-10-06T13:14:00.000-07:00

It is funny how every time I look up into the sky I see something new... It's usual, everyday the sky gives us something new... But sometimes I am just too busy to observe this free show of art given to me everyday. The sky has new pattern every day, it never repeats itself... Not even a day... it depends, but since it’s something that changes everyday… it’s beautiful this way… It gives you something new every time, for us artists, for us lovers, for us humans. Most of us do not realize the free show that is given to us everyday… something amazing like God’s mercy.

Suitcase

2007-10-03T11:41:00.000-07:00

''I am unloading a suitcase that I packed on a blue day, I am getting rid of some old things that keep weighting me down... Tell me Lord do you still forgive... Tell me that You still forgive because Sometimes I forget... I am in need of a saviour that can cover up my sin.... Do you remember my face? It's a bumpy journey... I want to hear those words again. do You still forgive?''- Cheri Keaggy

This is how life is bittersweet... Sometimes I wonder where our memories went when we were kids... Innocent... sometimes I wonder where our lives are going... Are we taking the right path? What are we without God?

''Reality is wrong, Dreams are for real'' -Tupac

9 End 2 Outs

2007-10-02T09:24:00.001-07:00

It's an inspiring Korean song... I love the part where it says Don't forget who you are... Smile again

Freedom of Hope

2007-09-25T19:07:00.001-07:00

This is suppose to be the moon. I guess that it did not came out right at all. I think that we are all free to hope, the heart that hopes can have everything, actually it has everything. Seeing people succeed challenges you of doing more and doing your best. Inspiration comes from odd things, random moment, random people. I got inspired today, by an actor/business man. I'll write about him in a new post.

God has His ways to make thing work out for those who believe. Those who have hope that everything will be alright...

Believing is everything.

Some people are meant to...

2007-09-25T11:22:00.000-07:00

Some people are meant to write, to make poetry that touches the soul of the reader
Some are meant to sing, with mermaid voices...
I checked out some blog, of a random fan girl of jdramas, it was so pretty, that I do not like my own for a couple of second. The idea of having a blog was at first to be able to publish my pictures. But now I am starting to write, some random things, I hate when it doesn't make sense at all.

Lies

2007-09-25T09:29:00.000-07:00

This post is not suppose to exist but since I am trying to think about something other than math, here I am, writing things that does not make sense at all. I just feel sad, trust me it's far from depression, it just a nervous breakdown... This is not good. But I'll tell you tomorrow I will tell you a love story, a weird one. I guess you can call that a love story. Maybe it was all just lies...

Peace is not a feeling...

2007-09-25T08:49:00.000-07:00

I am still looking for something new, trying to find someone to come and rock my world. I hope that I will make the most of this present. even though it sucks, but I guess that everything is worth it. Somehow I just want peace. I love the rain, but I want the rainy days to be over.

"Peace is not a feeling, but a knowing of You''-Cherri Keaggy.

Life is a bitch

2007-09-24T18:35:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time that I cried for random reason, well today wasn't the greatest day. I am just trying to reach my goal. A goal that has been set long ago. When I fail at certain things especially when someone is counting on me to do my best: I feel horrible. I hate failure... if I am myself I can comprehend why I failed. but since someone was counting on me, it hurts...

Life is a bitch, it's not even easy on you the times you need it to be.

Shishiu

2007-09-23T01:31:00.000-07:00

I read Shirota Yuu's blog and he was talking about this chapel that he saw and he said that he wanted to get married there. lol I've never thought that man of 22 year old think about marriage. Well I think that the chapel was pretty cool and very antique, good luck to him on finding the right girl.^^
The picture is random, I just though about premature love. mmm I really don't know why but this plant doesn't have all of it flowers bloomed. But oddly the plant looks just perfect, like it does not need anymore flowers to become beautiful.

First Love

2007-09-23T01:21:00.001-07:00

People say that first love is one to always remember, I believe so. In Utada's song "First Love'' I can feel her connection through the song. I believe that her first lover is definetely remembered. Me? I don't know through my poetry I immortalise the people that I love. So my wish is one day to write a book that can be published nationally. I do not know what it is going to be about but I know that it will be awesome. God has put this passion in my heart.

The sky at Meredith, is beautiful, just like first love.

Go Go Chan!!

2007-09-22T20:51:00.000-07:00

Sigh... I guess I was suppose to post something that goes with the title Go Go Chan!! (a Korean Song) but I guess this one will do to. I bought this ring when I moved here, I just like the fact that it was pretty, but I did not know what it meant for others. One day in my English 10th class, my teacher, Mrs Moore. grabbed my finger and told me that it looked like an engagement ring. I did not get what she meant then. Today I pulled his ring out, for some reason I kept it even tough it is fading away, as you can see it's fake. I pulled the ring out and I just imagine how it would feel if actually someone that you love give this to you. Of course I could not figure out how I'll feel or even feel how I'll feel if I get something like that from someone...

The simple things that means more than just things, sometimes they are the only memories that we have from the past...

Things I can't have

2007-09-22T20:24:00.000-07:00

''Believing is everything'' but there are some obvious thing that we all know we can't have. When I watched ''My boss, My hero'' yesterday, I learned like always, I guess that this is one major thing in most of the Japanese Drama you either learn or laugh or you do both. Why do we learn? I don't know I guess it give us hope maybe?? I really don't know, I know that the answer is not to become smarter, that is not the main reason of learning. Back to my point, thing that we can't have. Sometimes our hearts fail us... especially when we fall in love or even have a crush on someone... I am not in love, I am not a foolish fan girl, I don' even have a crush on this guy... He is just someone that I can't have: someone that I can't have a crush on, someone that I can't love, someone that I can't become a fan of; Yampani (my own made nickname) aka Yamashita Tomohisa. ~~

Chasing Dogs

2007-09-22T20:14:00.001-07:00

This little girl is pretty and cute, she has blonde hair and blue eyes, I just thought that she will be the perfect model for this background... She was chasing some teacher's dogs... I sounds like chasing cars but this scene was much more innocent and pure also joyful.

Fountain of Youth

2007-09-22T20:06:00.001-07:00

This is the fountain by the Math and Science building, my favorite place at Meredith College. It is not working properly now, because of the drought, but I hope that soon, before winter it will get well soon... I wish I could upload the sound it produces....

Tears in a broken heart

2007-09-20T17:39:00.000-07:00

I especially love this picture because, not only for the girl in the background with a pink umbrella, but aslo because you can't see the rain. That is my main reason of taking the picture under the rain, I knew that it wouldn't shown, just like tears inside a broken heart... :)

Life is a chance, Love is infinity, Grace is reality. -Yogi

Rainy Day

2007-09-20T17:29:00.001-07:00

It started raining today and I promised myself that I will take pictures under the rain, I did, this is my Favorite Place at Meredith. The fountain on the other side used to work, it still work but... I love the rain, I have a cold thinking that it rained when I was born, but I've never asked mom. When it started to sprinkle, I stood outside with my umbrella on my hand, and my eyes closed, I just thought about making a memory... Just to remember this day.

Beehive

2007-09-20T07:00:00.001-07:00

This place is called Beehive, in my college that is where I like to stay the most. Since the gray days are coming this is the best refuge. Usually I tend to stay outside by the fountain but it's getting cooler, I don't want to catch a cold. Now it is pretty empty...

Pictures

2007-09-19T08:12:00.000-07:00

Lately I found out that I love art, I do poetry mostly but now photography is really getting into me. I like making icons and I started doing this yesterday.

~~Midwinter...Wish~~