Other Gong Yoo Pictures ! yet again

Got to love him!!

Mizu... Shima... Hiro !!!♥

Today was alright! i love this short break and tomorrow it's Thanksgiving!! I am so happy!! I thank God for such an amazing family He gave me Gosh I am so blessed!! If you happen to stumble in this page you should be envious because my family is cooler and better than yours!!! haha lol
So I was doing some random pics of Yoo then I did Mizushima Hiro!! lol I will post him anyway.

Gong Yoo... Eyes... pictures and bod I want his bod lol

this post is so random, but I remember when I was watching Coffee Prince shop the main guy did not
appeal to me. Not any guy on that show on that matter... But Ah Rim was funny at times. So the
main guy real name is Gong Yoo and recently I have been browsing through that website and I just
started to like his eyes... lol... not because it looks good or anything but mainly because it did not have
any double eye lid surgery. And I just love him for that. and plus his body is mmmmm Finnnnee!!!


I guess there is no need to credit for the pics because there is a huge sign from where i got it.lol oh but the second pic is from popseoul like always modified by me~

Change it back... Change what it means to be friends

If you don't like someone, tell them. The worst thing you can do on earth is using someone for your own good. Just tell them they will be alright. I personally hate that as I have been used so many times and I don't want to anymore.

I don't want that fake friendship, if I am that annoying just tell me, just back off.

don't play me, don't talk to me then.

Just tell me that you hate me.

I rather know it than seeing your fake smile everyday,

because that smile is not warm when you are faking it all the way through.

I love all the moments with you, but I guess it is time for you just to back off. just back off and mind your own business.
Gosh I am freaking tired with all this.

I wonder where I went wrong again, I just lost another ''friend''...

Her/His name is Yume ~~~

Her name is Yume,
She is pale with white flowers,
I named her after a new word I learned…

Now she is one of my friends
She is always next to me
Even in my math class or biology
She is sitting next to me…

I think Yume is pretty
But sometimes I can’t tell if she is a girl or a boy…
So I just call her, her or him sometimes maybe it
That’s Yume even though I don’t really know what she is
I think that she is really cool…

When I feel sad,
She keeps my sadness
When I am happy,
She keeps my happiness
I really love Yume~
For all she is,
And also because she sends my letters to God…

One day she will die…
But I’ll always remember her life
With all the writing in her
With all the drawing in her
I will always wish for her to be remembered
She is my friend…

She is Yume,
He is Yume.
This is Yume

Yes.... I did it again~~ Sorry

I got to say that I am really quick at thinking negatively esp. when I met strangers I don't expect much from them. not even kindness... that's bad I know but expectation kills when reality is missing. So I rather expect nothing from stranger than having high expectation... I think that it is good though~~~ : )

''I hope that our friendship will last for long''--He said

I hate promises...

Don't make a promise when your are not able to realise it....
He said we will be friends for a long time and he gave me a smile
When I said maybe... with a frown
Deep inside I knew...
I knew that it would not last for long
The next day I saw him on my way.
I could not get a smile like yesterday or an handshake like when nothing happened
I just turned away but yet I remember,
The promise he had made yesterday,
the smile he gave... Too bad I could not see it
Too good that this selfish kind of friend disappeared...
when I remember,

those worthless yesterdays

Days when I bore all your mistakes with a big heart
saying that along the lines
you will get better with time
I laughed at myself for being so naive

After all you said it,

You just ''hoped ''
Silly me I guess I can't fix everything
I don't intend to hold on... I don't want to hang on
this kind of ''friends'' will leave me some day...

but sometimes I just wonder where I went wrong

It is tiring to always have to deal with this kind of love... selfish
I am still a stranger into all this thing after all~

Quote of the Day: ''I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, Life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow...'' ~~ Maya Angelou

Picture credits to axeangel@stumbleupon, modified by me~~

Postcard~~~~ A relationship that ended....

Her name was H..... L..

She was one of my K.ps...

I was suppose to send her this postcard
Since she lives so far...
That was before, just before she knew...
Her happiness was short I'll say
But I never knew that for her

Tiny thing such as color mattered...

It was so fast... It ended so quickly...

Just like it started.

My unsent postcard ...

Haruka Haruka---------Sun--Moyi

It was warm under the sun,
But I was wondering if the sun and silence was all I needed...
Compare to a place that I am used to ...
I could not decide until...
The sun started to fade away...

An apple on the table.
Maybe it was a sign.
That's why I wrote...

~~Koi no Ochitara~~

Shooting Star~~~~~~Nagare Boshi

well this is the lyrics to a song... inspired me somehow, because sometimes when we lost our ways, we just need something to remind us what we've promised ourselves...It's translated from Japanese to English... I believe that it's almost accurate, I did not translate this... I wish i could have... :-) The singer is Home Made Kazoku~~ and the song's name in Japanese is Nagare Boshi. Here it goes...

When I look up at the sky
The stars, see, are sparkling
Each giving off its own light
Like the people on this planet
Yeah, so I, too
Want to shine particularly bright
I close my eyes and make a vow in my heart
And entrust my dreams to that shooting star

I’m in my usual park
I can see the night scenery
On the slide
That’s been my special seat for years
Whenever I’m worried about something, I come here
Just like then, I’m on my way to my dreams
But unable to fulfil them“Maybe this is the end of the line”
There are days when I say weak things like that
But every time, I remember
That starry sky where I looked for a shooting star
The wish I made when I was little
Hasn’t changed even now

When I look up in the sky...

Hiding out in the schoolyard at night with my mates
We climbed the wire netting
The field seemed to have a different face than during the day
We headed for our sea called the pool
We didn’t have swimming trunks, so we were all stark naked
Someone jumped in with a strange yell
The splash echoed through the night“After him!” Everyone else piled in
We floated gently, looking up at the sky
Looked at the stars in front of us, and talked about heaps of dreams
And looked for that shooting star

When I look up in the sky...

Looking up at the sky, there are countless stars
The same number now that there was years ago
My dreams are endless and crazy
Incredibly bright, like that star

Hey! If you keep hanging your head like that
You won’t even be able to see the things you can see
Look up at the sky, keep your head up!!
Hey! “What do you think of the sky you see?”
Someday, like that shining star…
I wanna shine

When I look up in the sky...

Translation Credits to saka_xd @ animelyrics.com

Breathe~~~~ Follow Your instincts

I got to say that instincts are really good. Many times I find myself saying "I could have known better" but yet I make the same mistake again. Like being a friend with that girl was not a good idea because my sister told me that if something is suppose to happen don't force it!!! Ah! I knew better even what happened recently. Something down there did not feel right and I did not know what until I got out with a rejection and a broken heart... That was sweet life at 18, It must happened after all the heartbreak I must have one from overseas!! lol.

Quote of the day: The flesh is a gambler and the spirit an investor. -Joyce Meyer (it is always good to hear her preach!)

Your Side_____ Funny Story

It's hard to switch back and forth between all those stuff but hey I can get over it. It was just a heartbreak and yeah the js are way better now and I am sooo over it. LOL I do not know what the picture for this post will be~~~ I guess I have chosen Yokogao because it's so much of what happened recently. I have fell in love with Ks profile not really knowing who they really were. when i found out I was out of resources and I ran back to God! Ah! that was the reason for all the heaviness inside. But everything will be fine.

''When the story of Love began, from the beginning to the end, the Hero wins'' - Downhere (maybe? I can't remember)

There is something else to worry about....

I was doing fine, when I did not know that. I mean I looked for it at some points so maybe I deserve it. But it is getting crappier as I am trying to move on with my life. This is not good. I keep on asking why so much hatred against us? why? I want to move on, I want to carry on with my life as if nothing happen, i want to bring that light with me. I want to make people's darkest day the brightest. I want to live my dream and forget all those haters and all those pains from the past. I want to be able to forget, all this pain that I cause to myself while I was looking for something ''new'', I am so sorry please mend this broken heart. This is a Lame world with so much madness

My oranges, my hearts and my leaves...

this has been a while since I have been talking about this heaviness down inside all the time that I do that. It was better of when it was only Js, Ks got me in a lot more trouble and now I just feel like Mariah Carey...I was bringing on the heartbreak. How could I possibly find peace outside when I am troubled inside? I guess this memory goes in the folder ''The best year at Mereshit.''(yes I did it again)

This is shitty like seriously shitty. From the beginning, I knew that something did not feel right. Yapari!!! Those ungrateful bastards!!! Right now I am really mad, like to the highest level. Those hypocrites, bastard and shitty cheaters!!! make something on your own then come back and talk. And they are like my favorite singer is Usher or Omarion, What the fuck?(yes I did it, I knew that it will come down to this)And that Backstabber Bitch Car. she is going to pay, she better not come and talk about her freaking SAT, she will have a piece of my mind.

Seriously this world is L.A.M.E!!!!~~~~~~

And I wasted my precious study hours to do those dumb ass wallpaper!!! Aie!! so stupid!!!!

Everything was fine when I only had my leaves, my hearts and my oranges in my heart. I could have known that in order for me to feel right, I need to find peace in me. Then, just then everything will be alright(hopefully)

No sweets... Live Carefree

Il pleure dans mon coeur

Comme il pleut sur la ville

Quelle est cette langueur

Qui pénètre mon coeur ?

I can finish this whole poem... for a while I love it and I never knew why. I like the melancholy... I guess it's because it relates so much to my life at times. I wanted to replace this poem with another one but I still can't. I even tried Shakspeare famous sonnet ''Let me not to the marriage of true mind admit impediment, love is not love.."(i forgot the sonnet number)

But this poem by Paul Verlaine can't get out of my head because I feel like this time to time. I do not know what's going and I am still sad. This world is super lame.

I wrote with a black pen

just because I felt like it.

it could not be any darker...

since 2day was one of those dark days.

Thirst... Something New...

This pic is as shitty as the place where I took it
I took this pic next to another fountain at Meredith. It's been about a month now maybe since I took it. I just felt like posting it because... I don't know. I am suppose to sleep since it's 2:09 am now, but who cares. This is so random...sigh... I am going to edit this eventually...

~~True Luv...? Love? Maybe...

I just found out lately that my friends tend to come to me with their love problems... That's really cool to see that people think that I am good at giving advice although I am single... sigh... A love doctor maybe? that's funny because I get all of my advice from some movies or random stuff I watched... I guess that's what makes it so interesting or is it the fact that I am always all ears... sometimes that's what we all need, someone that just can listen and say nothing or someone that can listen and say something that might hurt or heal the pain. When I listen to the song ''True Luv'' By Brown Eyes... Those boys were pretty naive... True love never make you cry? This is so naive... Oh Puh-lease. Makes it look like something sooo cool. It is just cool when it's alive, once dead, you keep on telling yourself that you were better off without knowing it.

I don’t want to know what love is…

I listen to this song today, the title is ‘’ 나는 사랑이 뭔지 모르나봐요’’
This is dedicated to my broken heart.
If you read this keep on reading till the end
Because that’s how love is, we love until the end,
We love until it’s over…
If we call that love… then God is something else.

I do not want to know what love is…

Once she touched the borders of your heart
She felt like never letting go.
She wanted to hold on forever…

I do not want to know what love is…

Once I looked at your eyes,
I was wondering when was the last time you fell in love
When I saw and heard your pain,
My heart failed and I swear that I will never fall in love
I don’t want to know what love is…
It breaks my heart to see your pain

I am use to this loneliness,
I am use to walk this road all alone…
I don’t want to know what love is
Because it is already making me cry...

...

it's okay to dream...

Rewind...사랑해요... Tears from the Soul

I wonder where those past years has gone,

Did I spent them all in sadness and loneliness?

i remember at 16 when i heard your voice on a phone call

singing for me happy birthday, those where good times.

I am tired of watching from afar

I want to mend those last years,

God... they bring loneliness in my heart...

I can't believe two years passed

Since I first met you...

I will always remember your face...

As I've never loved you.

``Here you are on the other side``

The sky at Raleigh.... Pretty cool. From here you can see the RBC center. I hate that place, when there is a game or a concert there is like a freaking rush hour... and if you want to pee... yeah you are dead lol. It looks pretty good. But even under the heavy clouds... it ain't always raining at Raleigh. There are some sad days beneath those skies. and you just have to be there to experience Raleigh. It's an experience thing ^_^
Man, I am still trying to learn Korean and yes it is pretty challenging... O_0 I wonder if I will stick with it. Or did I just react too fast because I love Wheesung???? But I will not give up, not now... Mweehee there is more to life.~~

Tired... again TOP

The title is tired because it's me... I am so tired... But I had to mend the other post that my sis laughed at. One day when I'll look back at this post I laughed at how bad I am at this stuff. I really got to get better...sigh...But at least I tried : )

Sad Story------Loveholic

Since I have Wheesung and some Big Bang... I had to add Loveholic, since they are or were really good. If you are having a rainy day, if you want to pity yourself/briefly you just want to cry, and let it all out some more just listen to Loveholic's Shinkirou or Sad Story, or Sad Movie or Rainy Day, or A separation that could not start or Flower Pot or If you were here...it goes on and on... Cries... bad break-ups. But I really love Loveholic. I am loveholicted...( got to stop with the new words but whatever...)

The bad disbanded some times in late October, I guess the girl (JiSun) went solo (maybe she was the one doing all the songs? because she sings most of them..IDK) and the last concert was just heartbreaking like all the song they sang, she cried... And it reminded me of Zone a Japanese band who disbanded a while ago now and in their final concert they cried... me too... It was so sad. Ahhh Goodbyes always hurt.

But I really hope that she will succeed...

''Road is long there's no way back, as the last trace of this intimidating world fades away, you are left alone...mmm God Bless you.''-Loveholic's song Bless you. my favorite for now

Yokogao~~ Glamorous Sky

I fell in love with your (face) profile... I got to say that I fell head over heels for kmusic, and jculture. I do not know what to say...I just feel like this is the right thing to do or even say. I love it soo much. I remember when I was saying that there's got to be more to life? yeah here I am. receiving more to life. I mean never in my whole life, even when I am 14 years old, I have never thought of even knowing anything about Japan or Korea on that matter. First I did not know anything about Korea or Koreans, know some stuff about Japan though. And now here I am: ''I started to wish that I could touch you before I even realize it...emotions aroused, they can’t be stopped.'' (Aiko- Yokogoa lyrics) This is just how I feel right now. I just hope that I am in the right track God please a little help here. This is seriously killing me in a good way though. I am happy, I got to know more and there is nothing better...

Now I am under a glamorous sky Thank God that he created us all different so that there is always something more to learn about the others. and it is getting fun and fun and funner (lol sorry Mrs M.)

Everything is looking good except for my grades... I guess that I will not be an A straight student this semester but anyway it is my first year as a freshman, next semester will be alright! Fighting~~!!

Smile... Mornful Yesterdays

I got to say that once you love something you can do anything? maybe? lol anyway I went to look for Wheesung's lyrics. And most of them were about sad break ups or just something sad. I do not know if it is just me who sees sadness first in people or I am right... yet again, I have no idea. The same thing happened to Yamapi I thought that he was a sad guy since I watched Sore wa Totsuzen Arashi no You ni... Then I was wrong and my sis laughed at me (and she still does).

But I believe that you can know an artist through his oeuvres... and since Wheesung write most of his lyrics, I think that somewhere from 0 to 25 years someone broke his heart big time (lol but kinda sad)
Seriously this time I think that I am right... like 85% maybe? If he wrote most of his lyrics not all of them but most of them, then he does have a shady past or a break-upfull past( i know this word does not exist... sorry to my English 12th teacher).

And again another post about Wheesung~~ This is Wheelove babyyyyy

Love...Love..! Love..? Got to love Wheesung ♥

As I said before... a Wheesung post. Man I love this guy's voice, before I already said that if I keep listening to his voice I might fall in love with him. I think I am already in love with this guy. Man... his voice, Got to love his voice ♥. His new album is the bomb and my favorite song is Cha An Nam Nyeo 차안남녀 (I don't even know what this means but hi hi who cares the sound is good and the voice... no comment esp on the part 라 바빰바 차창을 때리는 빗물 가슴까지 파고든다 Oh Oh=Ra ba bbam ba cha chang eul ddae ri neun pim mul ka seum kka ji pa go deun da Oh Oh.) credits to neko28.wordpress.com got to check out this site, great songs collection ^_^
I guess that it is a sad break up song? maybe? Because when I translate it give me something like ''Until the rainwater breast which hits the car-window it digs into'' and the title ''Near bank man and woman'' (lol, yes people this is how crappy the Internet translation can be)
I am looking forward to learn Korean maybe?? or find translation of the lyrics? sigh... life is so cruel. But at least I am learning. I did not give up on my Japanese but Wheesung makes me wanna learn Korean no matter what.

~♥ ~♥ ~Got to love Wheesung~♥ ~♥ ~

Ok there she goes again...making me laugh...

Well, lol I told my sis to check out my blog... she was impressed until she saw the pic of TOP and she was like: ''lol no offense you could have done better, now he looks like a dead man that you are trying to remember, and his face is flying in your head...'' lol I think that she might be right. The cropping sucks on the picture...but that was like my first cropping ever! I know that... she just made me laugh for a good while.

I wanted to post something that has to do with Glamorous Sky since I have like a huge crush on this song... But I am at school and yeah if I do some more cropping my sis will just.... sigh...
There is only a month left till the end of the 1st semester... I can't believe it. It went by so fast but yes! finally I'll have time to watch some more dramas and get better at my cropping.

And soon I feel a post about Wheesung... I can't get enough of that guy...