T.O.P ♥ It's a girl thing... pinky

Lol I had to do all this without colors... Well it was pink before but since it showed all the mistakes of the cropping... It sucked then I just tinted it light blue I guess it looks better but I have to change some stuff later on and get better on my cropping style. It was pretty in pink...cries... lol. And the quote is messed up too. I do not remember what he said but it was something like that.

Anyway I was looking for the picture of Se7en arm tattoo since I think that it is pretty good and I saw those girls in NYC who got the chance to met him.... for free... no concert, I guess that they just walked into him or something like that... Ahhh they are so lucky...If I met with Se7en I would have asked him to give me a pic of Wheesung (lol) so I could cherish it forever. I remember that girl S. in my AP French class who fell in love with John Legend's voice and she was like:''I am in love with this guy like I want to marry him'' I laughed then but now I am in the same situation lol Wheesung....mesmerising voice ♥ ♥ ♥

History.... Try to remember or forget

Oh well what else do I have to say today, I do not like to bring history stuff of whatever it is called...Since I do not believe in the story that is told in history books. I was not pissed but I was laughing at them for being so jealous of something that they could not do or have on that matter. At first I did not even have the courage of looking straight at the teacher since it was so shameful. He just had to point the fact that Africa was named Shem (one of the cursed son of Noah) on the O.T. map dating from the 16 centuries and that the coast were filled with ''monster'' yes that was how those dumb ass explorer(or whoever draw that map) saw the world. The rage came from the bottom of my heart to my face so I decided not to look at the foolish teacher. This was stupid... We can definitely see that there is a ''hole'' in history and that those ''savages'' that those ''explorer'' found were not as they described them. I will not believe history that came from someone who thinks that he is superior to anyone different than him. It's crazy to believe something like that. He probably changed the whole history so we can see him as the ''best'', the ''superior''. I don't want to hate him, there is no point to hate someone... Then I came to a conclusion:

History= made up story by some people.

Mundele=full of himself and of the ''ghost of jalousie'' (quoting MJ here)

Hate=fear and tears of those whom past has been erased, pain of lost people.

But I try not to hate because there is no point to it. We just wait and see until one day the truth will be recovered.

Conclusion: History books (of the ancient time) are made up of lies and false perspectives from blind men. (about 70%is true)

Quote of the Day:''Though we might hate to admit it, there are always two sides to every story...Be sure, before we close our eyes ,Don't walk away from here til you see both sides of the story''-Phil Collins

Subject.... What...Tae Yang~♥~

Finally my second I guess, made by me self lol Ah it took me hours to finally find out how to use those brushes stroke and all. It's consuming... and now it is almost 3:00am I guess I should go to sleep but anyway I am proud of my work it was all worth it (I guess) lol. I guess it looks pretty since the model is not bad...I think Tae Yang is cute ♥ and shy also I love his gangsta side that is why... Gangsta Ways (I guess I was suppose to say gangsta style but ways works too) babyyyeye.


Pic from a forum and retouched by be and yes I did all the color work and all

Michi~~ Where we strarted...

Those where the best memories... When we walked down that hall together and we laughed.

Today is Monday, I am back where I started, with everything including Meredith (u see I don't call it Mereshit anymore) there is no point of insulting it, it will just make my freshman year as a college student worst. When i fell in love... such a long time ago. now maybe a year and half. I read something about that African American woman(Leslie Benfield) in Korean and stuff how they pointed out that Koreans are not racist just old people are. which was very controversial about what I watched. It was about this half and half kid who was neglected when he was in Korea because he was not ''pure'' Korean. anyway why am I talking about Korea?.... yeah I know whatever... but I still wonder why Amerie concert was cancelled... But you see it does not concern me, those people have a long way to go until they open up to the real world, the high way, so they can crush Japan as they wish to do. lol those stuff will never get old. people wanting to get revenge to other, that's shit. Jesus was already back so stuff like that will not exist anymore. but those shitty politician and other crappy people only think about vengeance. If it was me i would not have done any different against those people that I hate, but I pray to the Lord to learn how to forgive those bastard that have hurt my country at some point (and till now they are doing the same shit)...

now i am wondering when am i going to stop cursing.... This is seriously a lame world....

Excuse me... say What????... Those fans/bastards/ignorant people are wack...

This is crazy lol it just took me 2 days to find out how ppl in there are ignorant ( I am not trying to stereotype here) but some post that i read in popseoul.com was just flat out funny. Man seriously, those bands or whatever... they are all wannabe of Americans stars instead of doing something on their own, they spend their time copying and pasting watever that was that Usher or Justin T. or Beyonce did on their first solo concert. This is nuts and those '' fans'' who think that they rock??? Please.. gimme a big fat break here, they have nothing special =all fake. And to finish everything... I don't know what to say O_0 It was just sooo stupid.... I guess I have to change the banner of my blog ( and I worked hard on it...sniff... this sucks)... man I really loved it and TOP... sigh... bye bye I am not going to have a crush on you guys again. Anyway I knew that it would not last long... this is shit (oops I did it again, cursing is really a bad thing but yeah it was all worth it, those kfans got on my last nerves and yet someone had to pay :( I am back to the basics... It was a crazy experience.

Ignorance is bad people get educated and know some more about the WORLD not only where you live...

Bastard those fans. (quoting M. here lol)

My Kpop Obsession ♥

Gosh i spent like 2 hours doing this stupid pic and it did not came out right anyway I started using this thing there has been like 3 days hopefully I'll get better. well this is a lengthy post...

well there is like 2 picture of Se7en... poor Top but did I mention that I love Se7en tattoo? I think that it is pretty cool, he is like the second person that I liked tattooed the first one was Goldberg(wrestler if anyone remembers lol)

From top: Top, Se7en,Tae Yang, Wheesung, Se7en

Oh well I guess one day it would have come up to this... Anyway now I am like addicted to Kpop like crazy. I mean even though some of their songs are deja-vu but the voices... First I like the fact that they use the rn'b style and also hip hop and soul. They have a good taste at least they know the basics of music. The thing is, when I discovered them first singing hip hop I was like errm this sound so familiar, they should have something on their own. Then I was happy because I did not know that hip hop and rn'b have so much impact on music in Korea, it was pretty interesting. You see it's like they have their own:

Boyz II Men-----TVXQ

R.Kelly-----Wheesung(hearts ♥ hearts)

B2K-----Big Bang

Usher----Rain (since himself said that he really love Usher's music)

KCI & Jojo(Gosh I always mess up the Kci part lol)----Fly High

And the list goes on... it's pretty cool that's how I see it and that's how I love them sooo much. Soo much oh I forgot to compare Se7en but yeah he is also my one of my fav. ksinger... and plus I think that he is handsome(just handsome the best one so far TOP~~~ ♥hearts♥ hearts)

My firsts outsiders????....

Wow I was not suppose to post this but anyway... maybe one day my journal will be lost so I need to remember those firsts...

My first:

Korean Song that i listened to and really liked: Labor in Vain by Linus' Blanket ( a ballad song, it reminded me of lounge and it was all because of Coffee Prince)

Korean Drama watched: 18 vs 29

Jdrama: Hana Yori Dango

Japanese Song: probably Wish by Arashi since it was the theme song of HYD

Jdrama crush: man I guess none so far I always think that most of them look like girls... errm

Korean Crush: finally mwahaaaa that what inspired me to write hehe proud to say TOP (big bang member) gosh he is just so masculine and the eyes... God Thank You, You created him with such smokey eyes... I know that this will not last but at least it is my first kcrush so i am proud that finally a Korean guy appealed to me. yay!!

Kband that i really like : Loveholic...

Ksinger that i love: Wheesung, wheesung, wheesung, wheesung and wheesung... his voice... u have no idea

Jband: seriously none... i just think that their way of singing does not fit me quiet well... too high pitched that does not fit the song or the person singing it and the costumes they wear on their concerts just... throw me off...way off the wall.

Jsinger: maybe Crystal Kay... well she is not really japanese, anyways she is half Korean and African American... so that does not make her a jsinger but she lives in Japan so i guess it does make her one (i do not make sense)

Taiwanese actor/singer/business man crush: Wu Chun.

This is not suppose to go here but anyways the best singer/performer/whatever it is at singing name it he will do : MJ. Michael Jackson the King of Pop!!!! ^ ^ this guy is my fav of all time. My favorite song of his is Billie Jean and I was not even born when this song was out but I heart this song for life!!!! ^^

I guess this list will keep on growing as I am watching lots of Asiatic stuff lately... hopefully I'll find a jcrush soon, it's so annoying that it has been months that i watch those stuff but i can't have a crush on any of them...

Ouch!! The rain... Nothing last forever

I have to write this is crazy... I can't go to my next class... it's pouring rain outside and eum yes, I really don't want to go... anyway it's french so whatever... yesterday I stayed up late at night... trying to figure out why I was at Mereshit again. Yeah this school is really crappy... Somehow I miss my High school year and I wrote a poem about this shitty school seriously it belong to hoes... no offense (none taken anyway)... Nothing last forever.... I could have make the most of my high school years... those were the best years... :..)
Pic from internet obv.

Always ~~ Big Bang

Ah! I decided to have this post since well I like Big Bang ( a Korean hip hop group), not only that I like them, I like also their voice. They are not my favorite Korean singers... but since they look good (esp Sun a.k.a Tae Yang who looks like a Korean Omarion and TOP smokey eyes...sigh... handsome and the cute GDragon... with a killer smile ^ ^) and since my friend love them also. I decided to post this. But personally my favorite Korean singer is Wheesung... I love his voice soooo much that I think I will end up loving him :P. But still B.B. I love them too. *Hearts*
I love this collage and I made it myself with pictures from a website http://neko28.wordpress.com/...

More like Bleeding Reality

It's raining again today, I guess that is why I am writing. I watched Cartoon KAT-TUN yesterday and today again. I am extremely happy and I love Ne-Yo and KAT TUN more, I like the fact that they got along so well and also KAT TUN reaction toward him. It was sooo kawaii and Koki reaction and all of them it was like they were seeing a dream and Ne-Yo looked like a ''cool'' friend of them... And when he sang it was sooo cool and they were watching like wow. since their own singing stinks I guess that they were so impressed. I love that ep. it will be my fav from now on.

Today is happy day... I believe that even where you are in a place where you don't want to be, just believe that you love that place and everything will be fine. Very fine. Believing is everything. Baybay

Listen to ''Bleeding Love'' by Leona Lewis in such day is sooo Cool!!! ^ ^. I am happy even if the reasons are not really accurate but I know it's God.

I tried to sleep this pain

I tried to sleep this pain away
But it followed me in my dreams
I wish I could touch my heart
And tell it to stop,
Give me a break at least for a week…

I am starting to regret the day that met you
I could have just stay that way
Life was carefree without you…

I am listening to the same song again.
Bebe this is far from depression
It’s the ultimate inexpressible feeling.

faded roses...

Orange Days

I watched Orange Days, a Japanese drama. It was a charming, and really interesting story about two people who fell in love. You would say it is typical, well there are some surprises delightfully added by the producer. The girl involved in the story (Shubasaki Kou) is deaf and half mute (she doesn’t speak because she doesn’t want to), and more over she has a really stingy temper. The man (Tsumabuki Satoshi) really had to fall head over heels to put up with her temper. My appreciation for this story goes for many points about social life. First, all the love that her friends surrounded her with was really intriguing and charming. Second, all her aggressive temper toward her love (Satoshi), would be admirably quieted by his bright and crushing love. The kind of story that could opens your eyes about other realities of life. For instance, you never thought about it, but it can happen to you: falling for someone who is deaf or impaired.
After watching the drama, half sacrificing my studying time for the addictive story, I listened to Chris Rice song When did you fall in love. I smiled when I thought about their love, and the fact that Satoshi and Kou fell in love long before they knew it. I really appreciate the fact that concerning the main characters, it is a multifaceted love story: falling in love with someone for his/her talent, for his/her care, for his/her outward and inward beauty, and most importantly falling for someone because you just can’t get past his/her presence. And the crushingly loveable scene that could make you tear without your own consent: their dialogue while making love. Wow! The typical scene is when two lovers talk while sleeping together but never two people sign while sleeping together. It was new, original.
When Kai (Satoshi) told Sae (Kou) that God gives tribulations to those He knows would overcome them, a light went on in my head. I simply never saw it that way, and one more point for some Japanese drama: education. I just love it.
And despite everything that this story has in divergence with many others that I have read, heard of and watched, the popular expression “love prevails”, no, “Koi prevails” is what ties it to the others. And fortunately it is true.
Domo arigato or thank you very much!!!!
TDT Oct.6th, 2007 5h39’

Rose Lady

‘’I offer you roses (…)
Please don’t offer me roses
They’ll see me cry
The heavy load of life on me
Is painful
Don’t offer me roses
When they’ll see me cry,
They will fade from sadness…’’

credits: internet and a movier(idr which)

Sky... I am never going to fall in love again

It is funny how every time I look up into the sky I see something new... It's usual, everyday the sky gives us something new... But sometimes I am just too busy to observe this free show of art given to me everyday. The sky has new pattern every day, it never repeats itself... Not even a day... it depends, but since it’s something that changes everyday… it’s beautiful this way… It gives you something new every time, for us artists, for us lovers, for us humans. Most of us do not realize the free show that is given to us everyday… something amazing like God’s mercy.

Suitcase

''I am unloading a suitcase that I packed on a blue day, I am getting rid of some old things that keep weighting me down... Tell me Lord do you still forgive... Tell me that You still forgive because Sometimes I forget... I am in need of a saviour that can cover up my sin.... Do you remember my face? It's a bumpy journey... I want to hear those words again. do You still forgive?''- Cheri Keaggy

This is how life is bittersweet... Sometimes I wonder where our memories went when we were kids... Innocent... sometimes I wonder where our lives are going... Are we taking the right path? What are we without God?

''Reality is wrong, Dreams are for real'' -Tupac

9 End 2 Outs

It's an inspiring Korean song... I love the part where it says Don't forget who you are... Smile again